Sometimes, we are so caught up with our life that we miss out on the very things that make life worth living. Maybe it's time we slow down and look around us. Who knows, maybe the most amazing thing is just right beside you. =)
Thursday, December 15, 2005
The Pink Sky
I saw a breathtaking sight just now. I was using the computor, feeling decidedly bored when my brother walked into my room and said, " Look at the sky". I turned and saw that our neighboorhood is bathed in pink! The light cast a pinkish glow on everything. The blocks of flats, the trees, the cars... Even though I was sitting just next to my window playing the computor, I didn't realise that there's something so beautiful just right outside.
Sometimes, we are so caught up with our life that we miss out on the very things that make life worth living. Maybe it's time we slow down and look around us. Who knows, maybe the most amazing thing is just right beside you. =)
Sometimes, we are so caught up with our life that we miss out on the very things that make life worth living. Maybe it's time we slow down and look around us. Who knows, maybe the most amazing thing is just right beside you. =)
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Food Review
Ahh, here's something I will enjoy writing about. FOOD!
This restaurant ranked top in my list of favourite restaurants. It is the Tokyo Garden restaurant located at The Village, South Buona Vista road. My family has been patronising this Japanese restaurants once every 2 to 3 months, simply because the food rocks and the service is warm. The sashimi moriwase is the best I ever tasted for the the fish slices are very fresh and is slice thinly so it just melts in your mouth. The potato salad and chawamunshi are also must try! The food are also very carefully arrange on the dishes to look delectable. Anyway, I took some photos of some of the dishes we ordered yesterday.
Actually these are not the best dishes that we ate yesterday. The trouble is that once the food came, we sort of forget (or choose to ignore) to take pictures of the sashimi, yaki seafood ramen, the japanese tofu and the sesame ice-cream, etc, etc. By the way, I love the sesame ice-cream! It's so different and nice, taste a bit like peanuts but still different. It is something the chef whips up himself. *Drools*
Anyway people, if you feel like having japanese crusine, you can check this place out! Good food and good service are the reasons why it attracts my family to keep returning!
(p.s. Xiao pang, it's not guys lar.. Haha! But still your favourite?)
This restaurant ranked top in my list of favourite restaurants. It is the Tokyo Garden restaurant located at The Village, South Buona Vista road. My family has been patronising this Japanese restaurants once every 2 to 3 months, simply because the food rocks and the service is warm. The sashimi moriwase is the best I ever tasted for the the fish slices are very fresh and is slice thinly so it just melts in your mouth. The potato salad and chawamunshi are also must try! The food are also very carefully arrange on the dishes to look delectable. Anyway, I took some photos of some of the dishes we ordered yesterday.
Actually these are not the best dishes that we ate yesterday. The trouble is that once the food came, we sort of forget (or choose to ignore) to take pictures of the sashimi, yaki seafood ramen, the japanese tofu and the sesame ice-cream, etc, etc. By the way, I love the sesame ice-cream! It's so different and nice, taste a bit like peanuts but still different. It is something the chef whips up himself. *Drools*
Anyway people, if you feel like having japanese crusine, you can check this place out! Good food and good service are the reasons why it attracts my family to keep returning!
(p.s. Xiao pang, it's not guys lar.. Haha! But still your favourite?)
Monday, December 05, 2005
The Sleeping Illness
Do you know what's my biggest enjoyment during the exam periods? It is sleeping. It is the time when I can forget all about the stupid maths formulas which are useless in real life, the theories about why such and such happen, GP arguments, etc etc. Thus, I really look forward to sleeping everyday and even daydream about sleeping my days away after my exams.
However, now, (what the hell!) I'm suffering from insomnia! It pisses me off! Finally I have the time to sleep and I can't! So I began asking around and even surf the net for solutions. Here's 4 of them which I tried and, sadly, I declare them useless.
1) The typical "count the sheeps" method. It's boring, dry, dull, blah blah.. And you need to have a good memory for doing this. "1, 2, 3, this is stupid, 4, 5, ..., 150, can't believe I'm doing this, now is it 151 or 152? Heck! 153, 154, 155, 156, I'm getting angry, why am I not sleeping? Isn't method suppose to work? Now where am I?!" See, this happen to me so I declare this method, DUMB!
2) Drink a glass of warm milk before you sleep. But damn! Eating before sleeping makes you FAT! Next!
3) Listen to music. Rock music is definitely out in this case. Woodwinds or lullabies may do the trick but the way the singers croon and whine irritates me. Solution: switch off the radio and continue to sulk.
4) Go to bed only when drowsy. Duh!
What to do? What to do? Make me sleep!
However, now, (what the hell!) I'm suffering from insomnia! It pisses me off! Finally I have the time to sleep and I can't! So I began asking around and even surf the net for solutions. Here's 4 of them which I tried and, sadly, I declare them useless.
1) The typical "count the sheeps" method. It's boring, dry, dull, blah blah.. And you need to have a good memory for doing this. "1, 2, 3, this is stupid, 4, 5, ..., 150, can't believe I'm doing this, now is it 151 or 152? Heck! 153, 154, 155, 156, I'm getting angry, why am I not sleeping? Isn't method suppose to work? Now where am I?!" See, this happen to me so I declare this method, DUMB!
2) Drink a glass of warm milk before you sleep. But damn! Eating before sleeping makes you FAT! Next!
3) Listen to music. Rock music is definitely out in this case. Woodwinds or lullabies may do the trick but the way the singers croon and whine irritates me. Solution: switch off the radio and continue to sulk.
4) Go to bed only when drowsy. Duh!
What to do? What to do? Make me sleep!
Sunday, December 04, 2005
This past year
How do I begin? I have stopped updating my entry for this past year, trying to get my life back. I never thought such unhappiness would descent upon me. I thought all along that i will be able to sail through my life. Enter a secondary school, then to a junior college, graduate from university and then get a good job. But now I realise that life don't always turn out to be what you expected it to be.
It's hard to be left behind. It's hard to want to cry but can't coz I know that crying won't help. It's hard to enter a class who knows that you are left behind. It's hard to bear the jeerings.
So what can I do? In the end, I refuse to write down what had happen to me during this year. I remembered this conversation with anita:
Anita why have u stopped writing your diary?
Me I do not like writing about unhappy stuffs.
Anita Then write about good stuffs! There should be happy stuffs to write about right?
I had no answer for her
I guess life will never be the same for me again; never felt such insecurities before.
It's hard to be left behind. It's hard to want to cry but can't coz I know that crying won't help. It's hard to enter a class who knows that you are left behind. It's hard to bear the jeerings.
So what can I do? In the end, I refuse to write down what had happen to me during this year. I remembered this conversation with anita:
Anita why have u stopped writing your diary?
Me I do not like writing about unhappy stuffs.
Anita Then write about good stuffs! There should be happy stuffs to write about right?
I had no answer for her
I guess life will never be the same for me again; never felt such insecurities before.
Thursday, January 13, 2005
That Darn Job
Think some of you must have known that I'm waiting for the Vet opposite my house to call me. For those who don’t know, I thought of working for the Vet opposite my house so I can save on the transportation fees and because of all the dogs I can get to see and touch if I get to work there. Well, when my friend and I got down to ask whether they want to hire any part-timers, they tell us to call their operation manager. That’s last week and now, the manager is always not there or she’s too busy to answer my call whenever I called. Argh! I'm getting so frustrated! There’s a lot of things I can’t give an answer to my friends because I don’t know if I'm working by that time. And I don’t like the way this job hunting drags on. It’s a waste of time and money!!
Sometimes I really wondered. We are friends for quite some time already and why some still don’t understand me. My character, my moods, my thinking… Did circumstances bring us together or did fate?
Sometimes I really wondered. We are friends for quite some time already and why some still don’t understand me. My character, my moods, my thinking… Did circumstances bring us together or did fate?
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
All About Being Single
Well, I don't really know how to start writing this but I think I’m going to be real straightforward about this. So, not beating around the bush, I'm going to tell everyone about my feelings now.
I think most of you know that I haven't step into any boy-girl relationships before. Well, some may think that it's weird that somebody can manage to stay single for so long. If I can choose, of cause I will not choose to remain single. But it's very difficult to develop mutual feelings for each other, at least in my case. So I remain single till now.
However, the thing is, I’m not unhappy or unsatisfied! Serious! and I’m writing this because I feel people do not believe that I’m happy and satisfied now. It really tickles me to see them putting on a sad appearance when i sometimes comment on their "attached" status and my "single" status. Really, my friends, I am not sad that I do not have a guy by my side. That's because I’m so surrounded by all my good friends and my family that I don’t have the time to spare for any other guy. And there's a saying that goes "what you never have, you'll never miss". I think this best describe my case.
Recently someone told me that I strike her as a very confident person. Is this true to you all? well, maybe because all this while, I’ve seen and heard so much about other people's relationships that I sort of understand how relationships goes. I cannot say that I’m an expert on this area as I had not experience any before. But sometimes u heard so much of the same typical things that becoming partners become meaningless. In fact, sometimes it even bores me. So when it happens to me, I want it to be magical! Explosive!! Haha! And that can only happen if we really really love each other. So I’m still waiting. (No, no, don't give me that sad face. smile!)
Last time this guy friend from ODAC told me that they treat me as a buddy and like I'm one of them. Damn, I feel so HONOURED! *laughs* I like this title more than being their dream girl or something. So although I don’t have any boyfriends, I do have a lot of boy friends. And I'm sure they will last longer than any other guy. *smiles*
So next time we talk, don't feel sad for me or anything. Because being single is ok with me. I don't have guys messing up my time, my feelings and my relationships with family and friends. If you put your hand around my shoulder, it feels like an insult to me! It’s like u pity me. And it's wasted because I don need it. Being single lets me gains independence and confidence. I don't want to let my life to be run by a guy. Until the right one comes along, I will be living my life happily, this I can assure you! Who ever sees me mope for a guy everyday? Haha!
I think most of you know that I haven't step into any boy-girl relationships before. Well, some may think that it's weird that somebody can manage to stay single for so long. If I can choose, of cause I will not choose to remain single. But it's very difficult to develop mutual feelings for each other, at least in my case. So I remain single till now.
However, the thing is, I’m not unhappy or unsatisfied! Serious! and I’m writing this because I feel people do not believe that I’m happy and satisfied now. It really tickles me to see them putting on a sad appearance when i sometimes comment on their "attached" status and my "single" status. Really, my friends, I am not sad that I do not have a guy by my side. That's because I’m so surrounded by all my good friends and my family that I don’t have the time to spare for any other guy. And there's a saying that goes "what you never have, you'll never miss". I think this best describe my case.
Recently someone told me that I strike her as a very confident person. Is this true to you all? well, maybe because all this while, I’ve seen and heard so much about other people's relationships that I sort of understand how relationships goes. I cannot say that I’m an expert on this area as I had not experience any before. But sometimes u heard so much of the same typical things that becoming partners become meaningless. In fact, sometimes it even bores me. So when it happens to me, I want it to be magical! Explosive!! Haha! And that can only happen if we really really love each other. So I’m still waiting. (No, no, don't give me that sad face. smile!)
Last time this guy friend from ODAC told me that they treat me as a buddy and like I'm one of them. Damn, I feel so HONOURED! *laughs* I like this title more than being their dream girl or something. So although I don’t have any boyfriends, I do have a lot of boy friends. And I'm sure they will last longer than any other guy. *smiles*
So next time we talk, don't feel sad for me or anything. Because being single is ok with me. I don't have guys messing up my time, my feelings and my relationships with family and friends. If you put your hand around my shoulder, it feels like an insult to me! It’s like u pity me. And it's wasted because I don need it. Being single lets me gains independence and confidence. I don't want to let my life to be run by a guy. Until the right one comes along, I will be living my life happily, this I can assure you! Who ever sees me mope for a guy everyday? Haha!
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
Class bbq
My group's power is acting up again! Whenever we gather together, some things will happen. For example, car accidents, boy falling off the railing at esplanade, people getting trap in lifts, the westmall murder case, etc, etc. Come pay your respect to my group, we are the jinx of mankind! *evil laughs*
Today we had our class barbeque at puisin's condo. At around 10plus, the security guard came to tell us to pack up and leave. Actually this is ok but he went on to quote that there's this unit which complain about us being noisy. Well, one of my friends got very angry and went to speak to the family making the complain. Turns out that the security guard was telling lies as that family had not complain about us! To cut a long story short, the family made a police report as this is not the first time they had conflict with the security guard. Of course, this affair spoiled the mood of everyone. *shakes head*
Actually I rather admire the one who went up to inquire about the complain. If she never went up, the family will be the victim of the many future lies the security made to other residents. Due to her "rash" behavior, she do justice to that family. If our roles are switched, I will not do anything because I will not want the matter to be blown up. But sometimes, we cannot just shrink back and let things happen. Must take the initiative to pursue something.
I'm going to talk on another matter that is pressing on me. Recently there's a lot of mistrust going on around me. Friends starts to mistrust each other. Argh! I'm so confused! It seems like people are forcing me to trust someone and to doubt my close friends. Why are there suddenly so many backstabbing and lies going around? I don't want to question my friends. If they are speaking the truth, they will feel hurt that I had doubt them in the first place. Yet I'll be so disappointed if I realise that they had lied to me. Friends kept asking me what should they do but I can't possibly tell them. I tried not to be drag into their affairs yet now I'm stuck in the middle. I want to get out! But I guess it's not possible now.
Damn. I feel so guilty. I felt like I betrayed my friend too. And I might have just spoiled someone's relationship. Sorry, I guess I'm just a BITCH.
Today we had our class barbeque at puisin's condo. At around 10plus, the security guard came to tell us to pack up and leave. Actually this is ok but he went on to quote that there's this unit which complain about us being noisy. Well, one of my friends got very angry and went to speak to the family making the complain. Turns out that the security guard was telling lies as that family had not complain about us! To cut a long story short, the family made a police report as this is not the first time they had conflict with the security guard. Of course, this affair spoiled the mood of everyone. *shakes head*
Actually I rather admire the one who went up to inquire about the complain. If she never went up, the family will be the victim of the many future lies the security made to other residents. Due to her "rash" behavior, she do justice to that family. If our roles are switched, I will not do anything because I will not want the matter to be blown up. But sometimes, we cannot just shrink back and let things happen. Must take the initiative to pursue something.
I'm going to talk on another matter that is pressing on me. Recently there's a lot of mistrust going on around me. Friends starts to mistrust each other. Argh! I'm so confused! It seems like people are forcing me to trust someone and to doubt my close friends. Why are there suddenly so many backstabbing and lies going around? I don't want to question my friends. If they are speaking the truth, they will feel hurt that I had doubt them in the first place. Yet I'll be so disappointed if I realise that they had lied to me. Friends kept asking me what should they do but I can't possibly tell them. I tried not to be drag into their affairs yet now I'm stuck in the middle. I want to get out! But I guess it's not possible now.
Damn. I feel so guilty. I felt like I betrayed my friend too. And I might have just spoiled someone's relationship. Sorry, I guess I'm just a BITCH.
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Class bbq
My group's power is acting up again! Whenever we gather together, some things will happen. For example, car accidents, boy falling off the railing at esplanade, people getting trap in lifts, the westmall murder case, etc, etc. Come pay your respect to my group, we are the jinx of mankind! *evil laughs*
Today we had our class barbeque at puisin's condo. At around 10plus, the security guard came to tell us to pack up and leave. Actually this is ok but he went on to quote that there's this unit which complain about us being noisy. Well, one of my friends got very angry and went to speak to the family making the complain. Turns out that the security guard was telling lies as that family had not complain about us! To cut a long story short, the family made a police report as this is not the first time they had conflict with the security guard. Of course, this affair spoiled the mood of everyone. *shakes head*
Actually I rather admire the one who went up to inquire about the complain. If she never went up, the family will be the victim of the many future lies the security made to other residents. Due to her "rash" behavior, she do justice to that family. If our roles are switched, I will not do anything because I will not want the matter to be blown up. But sometimes, we cannot just shrink back and let things happen. Must take the initiative to pursue something.
I'm going to talk on another matter that is pressing on me. Recently there's a lot of mistrust going on around me. Friends starts to mistrust each other. Argh! I'm so confused! It seems like people are forcing me to trust someone and to doubt my close friends. Why are there suddenly so many backstabbing and lies going around? I don't want to question my friends. If they are speaking the truth, they will feel hurt that I had doubt them in the first place. Yet I'll be so disappointed if I realise that they had lied to me. Friends kept asking me what should they do but I can't possibly tell them. I tried not to be drag into their affairs yet now I'm stuck in the middle. I want to get out! But I guess it's not possible now.
Damn. I feel so guilty. I felt like I betrayed my friend too. And I might have just spoiled someone's relationship. Sorry, I guess I'm just a BITCH.
Today we had our class barbeque at puisin's condo. At around 10plus, the security guard came to tell us to pack up and leave. Actually this is ok but he went on to quote that there's this unit which complain about us being noisy. Well, one of my friends got very angry and went to speak to the family making the complain. Turns out that the security guard was telling lies as that family had not complain about us! To cut a long story short, the family made a police report as this is not the first time they had conflict with the security guard. Of course, this affair spoiled the mood of everyone. *shakes head*
Actually I rather admire the one who went up to inquire about the complain. If she never went up, the family will be the victim of the many future lies the security made to other residents. Due to her "rash" behavior, she do justice to that family. If our roles are switched, I will not do anything because I will not want the matter to be blown up. But sometimes, we cannot just shrink back and let things happen. Must take the initiative to pursue something.
I'm going to talk on another matter that is pressing on me. Recently there's a lot of mistrust going on around me. Friends starts to mistrust each other. Argh! I'm so confused! It seems like people are forcing me to trust someone and to doubt my close friends. Why are there suddenly so many backstabbing and lies going around? I don't want to question my friends. If they are speaking the truth, they will feel hurt that I had doubt them in the first place. Yet I'll be so disappointed if I realise that they had lied to me. Friends kept asking me what should they do but I can't possibly tell them. I tried not to be drag into their affairs yet now I'm stuck in the middle. I want to get out! But I guess it's not possible now.
Damn. I feel so guilty. I felt like I betrayed my friend too. And I might have just spoiled someone's relationship. Sorry, I guess I'm just a BITCH.
Monday, December 27, 2004
Prom Dress
I went to Topshop to get my prom dress today with xiao mei. Finally found one! It's a black halter neck dress. The price is a pleasant surprise, the dress only cost 60 bucks, which is like half of what i'm preparing to spend.
Though I bought this dress, actually there's one that really steal my heart away. It's also a black halter neck but it's make of leather. But I chose the other dress because if I were to wear this, I cannot wear any BRA! The front of the skirt really show of your cleavage, that is if you have any. It's those kind of dress that sets mothers' head shaking and bitches' tongues to start wagging. Well, I don't want people coming up to me asking whether am I wearing any bra. Also, I want people to look at me when I speak to them and not look at my bosom. So I sadly reject the dress. *sniffs*
Though I bought this dress, actually there's one that really steal my heart away. It's also a black halter neck but it's make of leather. But I chose the other dress because if I were to wear this, I cannot wear any BRA! The front of the skirt really show of your cleavage, that is if you have any. It's those kind of dress that sets mothers' head shaking and bitches' tongues to start wagging. Well, I don't want people coming up to me asking whether am I wearing any bra. Also, I want people to look at me when I speak to them and not look at my bosom. So I sadly reject the dress. *sniffs*
The Best Christmas gift
I think the nicest christmas gifts are those that came unexpected. Those that are left at your door step without a name. Those that someone took a lot of trouble to prepare or to deliver to you. Those that reminds you that someone treasures your friendship. And this year the nicest christmas gift came in the form of Hershey's chocolates. *smiles*
Thursday, December 23, 2004
2004 Christmas Gathering
I had not laughed so much for such a long time. I think yesterday's gathering really cheers me up a lot! Those peeps are really funny! We went Jack's Place for dinner. Actually the food is not very expensive, I think it's quite affordable. So...anyone wants to go there and eat? *grins cheekily*
We had this practice for three years already. Three years! Time past so fast! But I'm glad that all of us made the effort to meet up. Although we only meet up maybe twice a year, I'm glad that we still feel as comfortable with each other. Kimpeng is still forever teased by us. Joey is still as cute as ever. Rong yue is still as bitchy. Jane is still as tomboyish. Wei Lun is still as quiet though he tried making some lame jokes. Hui yuan is still as serious. Really love this group!
By the way, yesterday's Joey's birthday! Happy birthday Joey!!
We had this practice for three years already. Three years! Time past so fast! But I'm glad that all of us made the effort to meet up. Although we only meet up maybe twice a year, I'm glad that we still feel as comfortable with each other. Kimpeng is still forever teased by us. Joey is still as cute as ever. Rong yue is still as bitchy. Jane is still as tomboyish. Wei Lun is still as quiet though he tried making some lame jokes. Hui yuan is still as serious. Really love this group!
By the way, yesterday's Joey's birthday! Happy birthday Joey!!
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Christmas coming..
"Heelllooo..." Yup, that's the echo coming back from my wallet after all the christmas shoppings. Damn, i'm REAL broke!! How...? Get money from parents? Get a job? Get a rich boyfriend...? Nah, i'm just joking. As i would just get a rich boyfriend. I will most probably get three. *evil laughter*
Saturday, December 11, 2004
Ubin Trip
Here I am, with a glass of cold chocolate milk, alone in my room when everyone's asleep. I just love to have a glass of milk late in the night, it makes me feel so pampered. Haha! Make no sense right?
Anyway, I just came back from camping overnight at Pulau Ubin. Though this is not our first time camping there, but it's the first time that we can camp there without any obligations, meaning we don't have a bunch of juniors under our wings. Therefore, i reeaaallly look forward to this camp-over.
But maybe we are so relaxed in this trip that we forgot to pack two most important things. One is the mosquito repellent, a MUST in Ubin. The packs of mosquitoes are really ferocious, like some crazed Singaporeans at those buffet restaurants. So now I’m suffering from our negligence, vigorously scratching my 20 something "love bites" from the mosquitoes while I’m typing this.
The second most important object is torch lights! Gosh, I really wonder how can we forget such an important item as there are no street lights or whatever luxury in Ubin. But maybe it’s our forgetfulness that leads us to an experience of a lifetime.
You see, we decided to go to the eatery for dinner which is located at the jetty. But our tents are pitched at Mamam Beach, which is some distance away from the jetty. After our dinner, it's already around 8pm. Ubin at 8pm is really dark. You can just feel the blackness covers you, sometimes making it harder to breathe (well, that’s actually due to the fear). The whole bunch of us only has a torch. But luckily, we got those light sticks which will glow when they are broke. So we each have one "bangle" light stick on each hand. The one leading the way has the torch, so he became our eyes.
It's really exciting by then. When we cycle into the forest, all we can see is the "bangle" light sticks wore by each cyclist in front of us and nothing else, not even the edge of the road. We must follow closely as we do not want to get lost in the dark forest. At that point in time, I learn to trust my friends whole heartedly. Usually if I’m dumped in a dark area, I will be too scared to move. But at that time, I knew I have to keep cycling because I knew I can trust that friend in front of me and because the line of friends behind me trusted me to follow the way.
Thru this incident, I’m really really glad to have that bunch of good friends, knowing that I can trust them no matter what happen. And that we can work together and make sure each other is safe. Even when at that time we actually got lost because we missed a junction due to the darkness, there's no blaming of the person leading and we still trust him to lead us back to the right way.
Thank god I have such good friends whom I can share these hair-raising adventures with. I hope to keep them forever by my side. :)
Anyway, I just came back from camping overnight at Pulau Ubin. Though this is not our first time camping there, but it's the first time that we can camp there without any obligations, meaning we don't have a bunch of juniors under our wings. Therefore, i reeaaallly look forward to this camp-over.
But maybe we are so relaxed in this trip that we forgot to pack two most important things. One is the mosquito repellent, a MUST in Ubin. The packs of mosquitoes are really ferocious, like some crazed Singaporeans at those buffet restaurants. So now I’m suffering from our negligence, vigorously scratching my 20 something "love bites" from the mosquitoes while I’m typing this.
The second most important object is torch lights! Gosh, I really wonder how can we forget such an important item as there are no street lights or whatever luxury in Ubin. But maybe it’s our forgetfulness that leads us to an experience of a lifetime.
You see, we decided to go to the eatery for dinner which is located at the jetty. But our tents are pitched at Mamam Beach, which is some distance away from the jetty. After our dinner, it's already around 8pm. Ubin at 8pm is really dark. You can just feel the blackness covers you, sometimes making it harder to breathe (well, that’s actually due to the fear). The whole bunch of us only has a torch. But luckily, we got those light sticks which will glow when they are broke. So we each have one "bangle" light stick on each hand. The one leading the way has the torch, so he became our eyes.
It's really exciting by then. When we cycle into the forest, all we can see is the "bangle" light sticks wore by each cyclist in front of us and nothing else, not even the edge of the road. We must follow closely as we do not want to get lost in the dark forest. At that point in time, I learn to trust my friends whole heartedly. Usually if I’m dumped in a dark area, I will be too scared to move. But at that time, I knew I have to keep cycling because I knew I can trust that friend in front of me and because the line of friends behind me trusted me to follow the way.
Thru this incident, I’m really really glad to have that bunch of good friends, knowing that I can trust them no matter what happen. And that we can work together and make sure each other is safe. Even when at that time we actually got lost because we missed a junction due to the darkness, there's no blaming of the person leading and we still trust him to lead us back to the right way.
Thank god I have such good friends whom I can share these hair-raising adventures with. I hope to keep them forever by my side. :)
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
How do I forget..
I think it's my blog's music. Make me start to think of him again. How is he doing now? Did he further his master degree? Is his shop doing well? Has he found that someone..? Has he forgotten me....
I really wonder why it doesn't have a proper ending to this chapter of my life. Our existence just fades into nothingness. Now, all that is left is your name in my phone list. It doesn't mean anything anymore. Once upon a time, it connects me to you. Now? Ha. It's just there to mock me, you silly girl.
I think u have wizardry in your fingertips. All my life, I'm looking for that magic. The power that pull two different people together. Last time I thought it doesn't exist, that all fairytales are just, well, fairytales, meant to put children to sleep. But your existence changes my view. There is such "magic"! I thought u can feel it too, but....
Somehow I really hope that you can see this first entry of mine. I'll never dare to let you know how I feel. But I can’t take it lying down. U came, have some fun and then u left suddenly. What are u thinking…? I guess this question will haunt me forever.
Lastly, I think I should thank u. Thank u for letting me know that I can actually like someone very much. And yet I hate u too. You're making it difficult for me to like another... Please, just let me forget you...
I really wonder why it doesn't have a proper ending to this chapter of my life. Our existence just fades into nothingness. Now, all that is left is your name in my phone list. It doesn't mean anything anymore. Once upon a time, it connects me to you. Now? Ha. It's just there to mock me, you silly girl.
I think u have wizardry in your fingertips. All my life, I'm looking for that magic. The power that pull two different people together. Last time I thought it doesn't exist, that all fairytales are just, well, fairytales, meant to put children to sleep. But your existence changes my view. There is such "magic"! I thought u can feel it too, but....
Somehow I really hope that you can see this first entry of mine. I'll never dare to let you know how I feel. But I can’t take it lying down. U came, have some fun and then u left suddenly. What are u thinking…? I guess this question will haunt me forever.
Lastly, I think I should thank u. Thank u for letting me know that I can actually like someone very much. And yet I hate u too. You're making it difficult for me to like another... Please, just let me forget you...
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