This and That

Finally, I received a letter from MOE to inform me of the primary school I'm posted to. However, I don’t think I want to mention the name of the school in my blog to safeguard myself from future problems. So if you want to know, ask me personally k? All I can say here is that that is a very popular primary school and this explains the stress I'm facing now. You know how some parents worship their children. Hope I can survive in one piece after my stint there.

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I am so very proud of myself! Finally I manage to create an accessories stand! And it is so pretty though I have not finish it yet. Nice? Hee! I lurvvvve it!

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At the rate my little niece plucks my hair every time I carry her, I think I will be bald very soon. I don’t know why but she is very fascinated with my hair! She will ignore everybody and start pulling playing my hair once she is in my arms. And she will separate the strands and yank! Ouch! Imagine: When she is older, “Come, Ethel! Sis wants to plait your hair!” *Evil laughter*

I am just joking. Presenting to you, fanatic-about-my-hair-baby, Ethel. So cute.

It is so tough to maintain friendship

I am like losing my friends slowly.

There is this friend whom I really wish to ask to dinner and gossip just like what we used to do. Although we are in different schools these past few years, there is never a gap between us. But now, somehow I feel things are different and she seems not willing to share with me her secrets anymore. I do not know the reason and I wish I do. And something she said still hurts me. Maybe that is why this friendship is breaking down.

And there is this friend whom I never question her loyalty before. I know for sure that besides her job, we are on the top of her priority list. But when she has to choose between career and friendship, somehow friendship always seem to take a backseat. I haven’t seen her for months! I don’t know whether I am more upset or angry when she is always missing from the gatherings. It is sad when last time we used to say, “Even when we are in different schools or places pursuing our dreams, we must still maintain our closeness and friendship.” It’s been only barely 8 months and that pact seems to be dissolving.

Another friend of mine is giving me headache too. She is like a puzzle. I agree that people has a right to keep secrets. But when her secrets somehow are made known to me, it is so shocking and made me doubt her character. If someone has to put up an act all the time, isn’t it tiring? I can accept those things she did but because her behavior with us and her actions does not correspond with each other, that is what shocked me and seriously, I'm a bit put off by it. *Sigh* I only want the truth and get to know her again.

Friendship; why is it called friend-ship in the first place? Maybe it is really like a ship. It takes effort and time from people to build it up slowly. A ship transport one person to someplace he/she desires to go. Like a ship, it helps to transport someone into another friend’s mind and heart. Alas, like a ship, it can be broke into many pieces when met with a storm even if the foundation is strong. Friendship.

Burdens off my shoulder

Recent events had lifted burdens off my shoulder. To share a piece of good news, I managed to secure a place with MOE! I am going to be a primary school TEACHER! Finally I know where I am heading after those few months of uncertainty. I have to teach in a primary school for around 9 months before admitting into NIE. It feels a bit funny; I'm going to be colleagues with my ex-teachers. I used to look up to them and now I'm going to be “on par” with them. At the same time, I'm having jitters because I had no experience in handling a class of 40 kids! Besides, I'm also troubled about what to wear. And…… I still want to hit the clubs and pubs so I hope there is no school on Saturdays. Hee! Wish me luck!

Finally, I went to the movies with Him on Monday. It was our first date and maybe it will be the last. Things have become clearer to me. He is not the one for me. When I saw him, I felt nothing; there was no chemistry, no butterflies in my stomach. That’s when I knew that things will not work out. He is not as mature as I thought He was and god knows, I really need someone who is more mature than me. Maybe I am an old woman in a young girl’s body. Sighs. When I had finally made up my mind, I felt so much lighter. These past few weeks had been spent with me trying to squeeze out affections for Him. Finally I can face up to the facts that I have no feelings for Him. Time to move on.