I am like losing my friends slowly.
There is this friend whom I really wish to ask to dinner and gossip just like what we used to do. Although we are in different schools these past few years, there is never a gap between us. But now, somehow I feel things are different and she seems not willing to share with me her secrets anymore. I do not know the reason and I wish I do. And something she said still hurts me. Maybe that is why this friendship is breaking down.
And there is this friend whom I never question her loyalty before. I know for sure that besides her job, we are on the top of her priority list. But when she has to choose between career and friendship, somehow friendship always seem to take a backseat. I haven’t seen her for months! I don’t know whether I am more upset or angry when she is always missing from the gatherings. It is sad when last time we used to say, “Even when we are in different schools or places pursuing our dreams, we must still maintain our closeness and friendship.” It’s been only barely 8 months and that pact seems to be dissolving.
Another friend of mine is giving me headache too. She is like a puzzle. I agree that people has a right to keep secrets. But when her secrets somehow are made known to me, it is so shocking and made me doubt her character. If someone has to put up an act all the time, isn’t it tiring? I can accept those things she did but because her behavior with us and her actions does not correspond with each other, that is what shocked me and seriously, I'm a bit put off by it. *Sigh* I only want the truth and get to know her again.
Friendship; why is it called friend-ship in the first place? Maybe it is really like a ship. It takes effort and time from people to build it up slowly. A ship transport one person to someplace he/she desires to go. Like a ship, it helps to transport someone into another friend’s mind and heart. Alas, like a ship, it can be broke into many pieces when met with a storm even if the foundation is strong. Friendship.
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Well, there're many ways to label friendships. Don't expect too much for they sometimes fail you. The most you can do is to be true to these friends (hope they'll be sincere at least too). At least these friends still remember you and did still contact you right? If they do, I think that's all that matters.
kiseki
sometimes you don't realise it but you two (or at least one of you) will drift apart. no matter how close you treat him or her, i guess there's no way to prevent it..
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