Finally, A Trip Overseas with My Family...

Hello everyone! Yes, I’m back from Genting. I can’t say I have loads of fun there but the family time spent together is well worth it. I think the most enjoyable part is the drive to Genting. This time, my dad drove to Genting and the best part is that he just started driving not too long ago after a break of more than 5 years and we do not really know how to drive there using the second causeway. And so, all of us do not dare to sleep on the way there and kept our eyes peeled open for the road signs. My Dad Driving
We were caught up in a freak rain! We could see the rain as we approached and while we were in the downpour, we couldn’t see anything in front of us because it was raining so heavily! Our speed went down to 40km/hr when we were driving at 140km/hr-160km/hr. (We want to reach there early since we only set off at around 2pm. =P) Ten minutes later and we left the downpour. We can actually see it raining on the road behind us. Freaky! And then we were caught in a jam for half and hour! Don’t know what my brother is doing.
So we only reached Genting at around 8pm, which is bloody late! Too bad my bro kept the camera in his bag which he left it in the car boot; otherwise I can take a photo of Genting at night. It was beautiful! The way the roads light up all the way to top!
The great thing about traveling with our parents is that they are more willing to splurge and thus I had a bed of my own! Shiok! Haha!
It was wishing thinking on my part but I wish I can bump into Elvin again in Genting so I visited CoffeeBean every night. Wuahaha!
Well, we didn’t visit the theme park this time round because of some reasons, so we did some shopping, played some pool and watched tv. I loved their television programmes! So many nice shows to watch!

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I saw this programme which basically explains where do wigs and hair extensions come from. No, they are not from dead bodies. (-_-‘”)… In India, little children will collect hairs dropped from their mothers every morning when they comb their hair. Then there are hair collectors who go around collecting these bundles of hair from the children in exchange for sweets and stickers. The hair collectors then sell the hair to hair dealers who employed workers to help separate the strands of hair, wash off the coconut oil and straightened the hair. Then they send the sacks of hair to…. China! They will then dye, perm, sew the hair into wigs and sell them to the western countries. Ta Dah! Fascinating. But I don’t think I will want to do hair extensions after watching the documentary.

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Well, back to the topic of my trip. My parents, especially my Dad, were hooked to the card tables and slot machines. Too bad my brother and me could not enter because we are still underage (somehow it feels good to use the word “underage”). So we spent a lot of time waiting for them to “look around”. Poor things. Sitting on the floor, waiting for our parents to come out of the casino.












Hmm... I will let the photos do the talking next.

I felt cheated. I went for the cold cold weather! Not sunny skies.

My Mum and Dad-with-a-smirk

I like this picture I took. Not the subject. Haha!

Trying to act melancholy.

I don’t know how this photo turns out to be Ah Lian acting cute but I sorta like this photo. =P

I hoped my family and I will have the chance to go overseas again… soon. I missed the times when we worked together as a team. I LOVE them!

Announcements! Announcements!

Annoucement No. 1: Yours truly here is on holiday from now till the 26th of December 2006. So I will be free to be your shopping partner, your mahjong kaki, tea time tai tai, you name it, you have it. Problem is you will have to book me few days in advance because I will be a very busy person with all these activites. Hee!

Announcement No. 2: This something for me to cheer about because my family and I will be taking a trip overseas after 6 YEARS! We will be going to Genting on the 13th-15th Dec 2006. Don't miss me!

Announcement No. 3: My friend has set up a online shop selling both 2nd hand and new items. Please go and have a look. I find it not bad. Www.mylittlestash.blogspot.com

Announcement No. 4: Please take time to visit the Sharity Trees located around Singapore. The trees contained wishes from children, elderly and families for christamas. They are less fortunate than us and their wishes are very simple to fulfil. For instance, some of the children want stationery, which are cheap and easy to get. So why not make some of them very happy this christmas? So please take a look at the wishes.
The trees are located: Ngee Ann City, Tangs (Orchard), Bukit Panjang Plaza (NTUC), Bukit Timah Plaza (NTUC), Clementi Central (NTUC), Jurong Point (NTUC), Tiong Bahru Plaza (NTUC) and some more which I can't remember off hand. I will update when I find the list!
Help spread the word!

So How's Teaching?

It’s been a looong time since I updated my blog. I can’t say that I had been too busy to go online. It is just that I am emotionally drained by the time I end work. I just want to sit down, watch the tv and stop thinking about myself temporarily at the end of the day. Finally it is the school holidays now. Maybe it is time for me to look back, think, regret and then move on.
I used to think that teaching, especially at the primary level, is easy. Just give me the materials and I can teach. If only it is this simple. Where did the materials come from? How do you go about translating ideas to the students, especially those at lower primary? How to make it more interesting and not digress? Most importantly, how to make sure every single student is listening? There are so many areas to juggle at the same time. I have to be on my toes all the time and this make me tense and thus I don’t think I deliver the lesson as well as I think I should be.
And sadly, I have only one friend in the school. I wonder why I become so shy. I used to be so different in my secondary school. I do not think twice when approaching people. In my present school, I clammed up and turn into an introvert. I believe it may be due to me trying to live up to the expectations of an English teacher. Seriously, I don’t think I can speak perfect English sentences fluently. Throw me a pen and paper and I can write flowing passages. Since that is the case, I usually do not speak my mind. I’m afraid I may make a laughing stock out of myself with my poorly spoken English sprinkled with bad grammar and wrong tenses. Therefore, I’ve already made a resolution and that is to speak in English all the time. Now it is up to me to keep that promise.
So every day is emotionally draining for me. I hope things will change for the better when next year starts. It feels like I am holding onto different pieces of a jigsaw puzzle and am trying very hard to piece everything together. The harder I try, the harder the task seems to be. I just hope that in the new year, everything will just fall in place nicely. Maybe then I will have more time to blog. And I will be a happier person.

The things Kids say...

The good, nice and sweet stuffs that makes you go, "Awww...." :

1) “Madam! It’s Madam! Hello Madam! Timothy, it’s Madam! Come here!”
-A primary one boy shrieked when he saw me coming out of the staffroom.

2) “Madam, look my lantern. I made this all by myself!”
“ That’s very good!”
“ I can give to anyone I want, you know?”
“ Do you want to give it to me?”
-The boy nodded, smiling.

3) The smile that this boy gave me whenever he walked pass me in class.

The weird, strange and dunno-to-laugh-or-cry stuffs that make you go, “Huh?”

1) “You’re the new teacher here?”
“Yes.”
“Ok, keep up the good work.”
-And he walked away.

2) “If you gives me $1.70 from $5, how much will you left? Count the coins in your
hands."
“Nevermind, you can take these $5 coins. I have a lot at home.”
-Somebody rich

3) “I had a very bad nose bleed this morning.”
-And promptly walked away before I could say anything else.

The bad stuffs that make my blood boil.

1) “She is a big breast prostitute.”
-Written by a boy who was teasing another boy

2) A picture of male sex organ and a female’s breast.
“Which is better?”
-Written on a piece of note I confiscated from somebody in class.

3) “Madam, my brother always says this to me but I don’t know what it means. What is P-I-M-P?”
-Obviously, he knows the answer.

Depressed, depressed, depressed......

I am one week into my new job and seriously, I am so not happy with it. Teaching is not as "honourable", "admirable", "easy", etc, as what the public assumed it to be. There is politics in the office, cliques formed, nasty (overly Kiasu and blinded to the faults of their off-springs) parents and the list can go on and on and on.
I am so depressed. When I saw how other new teachers, like me, are being assigned classes to teach in other schools, they don’t know how lucky they are. At least, they BELONGED to the school! I am doing purely observation now, which is very useful as it expose me to the culture and students of the school. But it is quite obvious that some teachers do not like me in their classes. Maybe it is stressful to them, maybe they will be afraid of me becoming their responsibilities, maybe they thought I will be a distraction to the students, maybe….. In other words, I felt like an intruder, a burden and am not welcomed.
I do not get paid to read storybooks in the staffroom. I hoped someone piled me up with books to mark! At least, I am earning my keep. At least I have something to do when teachers are zooming passed my desk every now and then with a purpose. During the preparatory programme for us newbies, the lecturer mentioned that we must establish routine in the classroom. This will provide a sense of security to the students. Well, this explains why I am so insecure. Because I have not even received my observation timetable yet! I go to school everyday clueless as to what I will be doing for the day. I am filled with envy when I saw how well two other newbies are taken of in my school. (They belong to other departments.) I do understand that at this point in time, it will be disturbing to the kids should I take over. Their exams are looming round the corner and we should not expect them to adjust to a new teacher’s style of teaching when they should be concentrating on their revision. So I do not mind doing observations till the end of year. But at least make me feel useful. I am not those kind of employees who just want to slack their way through and nothing pleases them more than nothing to do. I like to contribute and to give me work also means that my employer recognises my capabilities and like to have my help. I will go all the way to help, man!
*Sigh* Tomorrow is Monday again. Hopefully something has been worked out for me. I am still finding my niche in the school and tomorrow bring a new sense of hope that I will eventually find it. I am an optimistic person and I will not let this bring me down. I believe that once you allow yourself to give up, a series of give-ups will follow since giving up is so much easier than gritting your teeth and fight on. No, I will not give up…yet. Maybe when I am on the verge of sanity then will I give up for self preservation. Meantime, I will Fight On!

This and That

Finally, I received a letter from MOE to inform me of the primary school I'm posted to. However, I don’t think I want to mention the name of the school in my blog to safeguard myself from future problems. So if you want to know, ask me personally k? All I can say here is that that is a very popular primary school and this explains the stress I'm facing now. You know how some parents worship their children. Hope I can survive in one piece after my stint there.

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I am so very proud of myself! Finally I manage to create an accessories stand! And it is so pretty though I have not finish it yet. Nice? Hee! I lurvvvve it!

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At the rate my little niece plucks my hair every time I carry her, I think I will be bald very soon. I don’t know why but she is very fascinated with my hair! She will ignore everybody and start pulling playing my hair once she is in my arms. And she will separate the strands and yank! Ouch! Imagine: When she is older, “Come, Ethel! Sis wants to plait your hair!” *Evil laughter*

I am just joking. Presenting to you, fanatic-about-my-hair-baby, Ethel. So cute.

It is so tough to maintain friendship

I am like losing my friends slowly.

There is this friend whom I really wish to ask to dinner and gossip just like what we used to do. Although we are in different schools these past few years, there is never a gap between us. But now, somehow I feel things are different and she seems not willing to share with me her secrets anymore. I do not know the reason and I wish I do. And something she said still hurts me. Maybe that is why this friendship is breaking down.

And there is this friend whom I never question her loyalty before. I know for sure that besides her job, we are on the top of her priority list. But when she has to choose between career and friendship, somehow friendship always seem to take a backseat. I haven’t seen her for months! I don’t know whether I am more upset or angry when she is always missing from the gatherings. It is sad when last time we used to say, “Even when we are in different schools or places pursuing our dreams, we must still maintain our closeness and friendship.” It’s been only barely 8 months and that pact seems to be dissolving.

Another friend of mine is giving me headache too. She is like a puzzle. I agree that people has a right to keep secrets. But when her secrets somehow are made known to me, it is so shocking and made me doubt her character. If someone has to put up an act all the time, isn’t it tiring? I can accept those things she did but because her behavior with us and her actions does not correspond with each other, that is what shocked me and seriously, I'm a bit put off by it. *Sigh* I only want the truth and get to know her again.

Friendship; why is it called friend-ship in the first place? Maybe it is really like a ship. It takes effort and time from people to build it up slowly. A ship transport one person to someplace he/she desires to go. Like a ship, it helps to transport someone into another friend’s mind and heart. Alas, like a ship, it can be broke into many pieces when met with a storm even if the foundation is strong. Friendship.

Burdens off my shoulder

Recent events had lifted burdens off my shoulder. To share a piece of good news, I managed to secure a place with MOE! I am going to be a primary school TEACHER! Finally I know where I am heading after those few months of uncertainty. I have to teach in a primary school for around 9 months before admitting into NIE. It feels a bit funny; I'm going to be colleagues with my ex-teachers. I used to look up to them and now I'm going to be “on par” with them. At the same time, I'm having jitters because I had no experience in handling a class of 40 kids! Besides, I'm also troubled about what to wear. And…… I still want to hit the clubs and pubs so I hope there is no school on Saturdays. Hee! Wish me luck!

Finally, I went to the movies with Him on Monday. It was our first date and maybe it will be the last. Things have become clearer to me. He is not the one for me. When I saw him, I felt nothing; there was no chemistry, no butterflies in my stomach. That’s when I knew that things will not work out. He is not as mature as I thought He was and god knows, I really need someone who is more mature than me. Maybe I am an old woman in a young girl’s body. Sighs. When I had finally made up my mind, I felt so much lighter. These past few weeks had been spent with me trying to squeeze out affections for Him. Finally I can face up to the facts that I have no feelings for Him. Time to move on.

My Cruise Trip

Hello! I'm back from my 3 Days 2 Nights cruise! Well, luckily it was such a short trip. I was bored 70% of my time due to the fact that I am not a gambler and..

Jackpot is such a STUPID GAME in which BRAINLESS people can pick up in 3 seconds flat!

I don understand the lure behind the game. Just press the computer button and wait for the computer technician/casino owner to decide the percentage of your win. So dumb...

And so, I spent most of my time wondering alone in the ship. There are nothing much to play for someone alone. But thanks to my 1G memory stick, Ha!, I spent a lot of my waking moments taking photographs.

Presenting you the ship, Starcruise Virgo!

It boasts of 13 stories with an ultra nice swimming pool.

We can get to eat for free at three of the restaurants, the Chinese restaurant, The Pavillion

Usually after our meals, we will go to the buffet restaurant, The Mediterranean Restaurant, for our desserts. Well, since it’s free... No doubt, we ate alot during these three days.

The western restaurant, Bella Vista We only visited here once since my relatives don’t favour western food. Pity.


Whenever I walked down this corrider, I was reminded of Titanic, the movie. Not a nice thought aboard the ship.
Tada! My room 09007!

There are three beds in the room with one that was attached to the wall and can be pulled down should the need arises. I shared the room with my mum and one of my cousins and I immediately aimed for the makeshift bed. *Laughs* An unique experience, though I could not sleep for the first night due to the fear of tumbling down. Look at my mum. *Laughs* I told her I'm doing Quality Control, QC, for the bed.

When I first boarded the ship, there are mascots lurking around, trying to grab hold of us for a photo shoot. They will then charge around $12 for a photograph! Robbery in broad daylight! Therefore, we decided beforehand to sneak pass them without taking any photographs. Due to my inexperience, I was caught! A penguin mascot grabbed hold of my shoulders in a tight grip and pulled down my off shoulder top before the camera flashed! STUPID PERVERTIC PENGUIN! I would like to have kicked his groin but it will be a futile attempt because the man is wearing such a thick costume. Let’s just hope his sperm count decrease due to the heat accumulated around that area. Yea? Anyway, I managed sneakily to take a shot of the photograph. *Cheers*

This trip brought us to Redang Island, the beach made popular by the movie, Summer MoMo or something like that. Long before we reached the island, I can already see the bottom of the sea! The water is that clear! Nice right, the view?

I was taking photographs when I spotted this rock I thought I could climb. Unfortunately, I cut my finger on some barnacles before i could even stepped on it! The cut is quite deep, I nearly thought I need stitches because the blood just won’t stop flowing. So, heck!, I wash my wound with the sea water. Surprisingly, it did not hurt much and my blood ceased to flow. Thank goodness! Ya, and that is the stupid piece of rock. I told my mum to include the whole rock in the picture but I guessed she must have detested the rock so much she decided to take only a small part of it. *Giggles*

I like this photo!

They have bars set up which sell not only alcohol but coconuts and ice kachang!

On the last day, I went to watch the sunrise with my mum. At first, I thought there will be a huge crowd of people on the sun deck but I was so wrong. There are only a few of us. It is so saddening. People can stay up late pressing buttons on the jackpot machines but will not wake up early to enjoy something as beautiful as a sunrise. The world is changing.





I love this picture best! It was taken before sunrise and the cresent is still in the sky. So nice!

The blogger doesn't allow me to upload any more pictures already! Do they have a limit for the number of photos uploaded in a day?? Nevermind, I'll upload my narcisstic photos another time. Wuahahaha!

She's the Man

It must be one of the funniest show I watched in the movies. Clever plot, the correct cast, guys with great bodies, all adds up to a great movie! I was going through the movie in my mind one night before I sleep and I was thinking how did the scriptwriter came up with such funny names for the characters. People don't exactly called their children "Duke", "Viola" or "Olivia" nowadays. The names seem to come straight of out Shakespeare's stories. And then, I slowly realised that the plot seems familiar, like one of ......... Shakespeare's tales! To tell the truth, I sat up immediately. They generate a new movie out of a Shakespeare's story! Quite clever, in fact. The central idea of the story is sure to be great, coming from a master of story writing, Shakespeare himself. Well, the play is called "Twelfth-Night: Or What You Will". Below is the tale from Shakespeare.

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Orsino, the Duke of Illyria, was in love with a fair lady, by the name of Olivia. However, Olivia, having lost a brother whom she loved dearly, was in mourning and had refused to even see the Duke.
One day, out in the sea, a ship encountered a fierce storm and the crew was shipwrecked. A sister and brother thus was seperated. Viola, the sister, reached the shores of Illyria safely with the ship's captain but Sebastian, her twin brother, was lost. Viola was devastated. When she heard about Olivia from the ship's captain, she felt a connection between them - both had lost their brothers. She felt a sudden longing to live with that lady, to comfort each other over the lost of their brothers. She came up with a plan and that was to dress up as a page (messenger boy), get close to the Duke and hopefully, the Duke will send her to Olivia to express his love for her.
Cesario, Viola's new identity, spent long hours listened to the Duke, who poured out all his feelings for Olivia to his faithful page. Over time, Cesario began to developed feelings for the sentimental Duke.
One day, the Duke commanded Cesario to go to Olivia's house to plead his love. Cesario was very troubled but she was a loyal page and thus, made her way to Olivia's house. Cesario was very insistent in meeting Olivia and would not take no for an answer from the servants. Olivia, curious at the noise, agreed to see Cesario. Upon seeing someone with such a elegant air, Olivia became more and more attracted to the young "man", as Cesario went on about how much the Duke loved her.
On her second visit, Olivia poured out her real feelings for Cesario. Cesario, shocked, rejected her love, saying that she could never love a woman, and went out as fast as she could. Not soon after, she was challenged to a duel by a Sir Andrew, a former suitor of Olivia. Cesario is afterall a girl and thus she went weak at knees at the thought of a duel. However, just as she was pulling out her sword, someone yelled to Sir Andrew, saying that he would be fighting on behalf of this gentleman. Cesario turned and saw a stranger. She wondered why would a stranger want to fight on her behalf. Suddenly, two officers came up and arrested the stranger for a past offence he committed. The stranger then turned to Cesario and said," This comes from looking for you, my friend. Still, I must now answer for my offence. Please returned me the purse that I had given you."
Cesario was confused beyond doubt at the moment and she insisted she did not recieved any purse from the stranger and even offered him some of her money. The man, enraged, turned to the crowd and cried out that Cesario was ungrateful, ending with a sentence that shocked Viola, " O Sebastian, how you have deceived me!" Sebastian, Viola's twin brother, had survived the shipwrecked and the stranger is Antonio, a sea captain, who saved his life.
Meanwhile, Sebastian was walking around town when he was attacked by Sir Andrew, who had mistaken him for Cesario. The noise brought out Olivia and she ordered them to stop fighting. She brought Sebastian into her home and showered him with attention. Sebastian was delighted by the care and concern from Olivia, who also mistook him for Cesario. The lady, afraid the he might pushed her away again, proposed that they should get married immediately. Sebastian, happy but bewildered, accept the proposal and they were married right there and then. He then went off, looking for Antonio to share the good news.
Antonio was then brought to Olivia's house by the two officers. The Duke had also arrived. Antonio pointed at Viola and said that she was the reason he returned back to Illyria and risked getting caught. However, the Duke said that Viola had been with him for the past 3 months. Olivia then arrived and called Viola her "husband". Viola was shocked. The Duke was more hurt than shocked. He could not imagine his faithful page betraying him. Suddenly, Sir Andrew arrived, claiming that he had been attacked by Cesario. Viola, bewildered, said that she had never fought Sir Andrew.
At this moment, Sebastian appeared. The group became silent and they stared at both Viola and Sebastian. They had the same features, the same complexion, the same height, in fact, they were identical. Finally Antonio spoke up and asked who is the real Sebastian. Viola stepped forward and told Sebastian that she was, in fact, Viola. It was a happy reunion for the siblings. The Duke, realising the Cesario was actually a girl, began to look at Viola with new eyes. Olivia, seeing the look the Duke gave Viola, proposed that the priest who wedded her and Sebastian, performed another wedding as well. And they lived happily ever after.



That's the end of the story. I added in the last sentence myself, to make the story end nicely. Hee! *Pants* I hope you all enjoyed the story, it is not easy to summarise until like this, you know! Maybe people won't even look at the story. Though I hope I did a good job summarising, this story is too simplified to be enjoyable. So maybe peeps out there may want to borrow the play to read. One last thing, anybody see the similarities up there?

In the Movies

It is funny how some thoughts strike me when I'm in the middle of doing something totally irrelevant. I was in the movie the other day with a guy friend and that experience crumbled one of the theory I formed when I was in the movies with Him.
I recalled the day when we watched a comedy together. He was sitting beside me and throughout the show, we were sitting near to each other. At that very moment, I'm embarrassed to say it now, I wanted his arms around me. (Gosh, I sound like some desperate spinster.) "I need a guy", this voice kept swimming in my head. I prided myself on staying single and being independent from guys and that feeling was new to me. But then, I also realised that I only want him physically. I never found the need to talk to him, to talk about our ideas, to tell him my feelings, to click with him and yet I can only think of snuggling into his arms. It hit me then, I do not need someone to connect with me in terms of thinking, I just need a guy, any guy, to be there when I need a shoulder to cry on, to hold my hand, to hug me when I'm feeling down... Sounds kind of weird, ain't it? Like I just want a body. (Please do not think of the sexual way.)
So that was the theory I formed that explains why I alternate between cold and hot to Him. But after the movie with one of my guy friend, my theory was busted. We were also sitting together and suddenly I thought of trying out my theory. Since it was dark and he is a guy, I tried to imagine, imagine ok!, him putting his arms around me. And I SHUDDERED. He just do not appeal to me. I thought, " Hey, didn't you say any guy will do? What happened"? So, after the experiment, my theory does not stand.
So what are my true feelings for Him? Only physical attraction? It cannot be, as to say the truth, he does not have a great bod. I don't know. Time will tell.'

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It is the law of nature. Meet a predator, fight or flight. I've been fighting for some time, sometimes against Him, sometimes against me. Maybe it is time for me to flight.

National Day Parade 2006

I've got a ticket to the National Day Parade Family Day 2006!! Though it is not the actual thing, it is better than not having the chance to go. I've been yearning for a chance to take part again so of course I jumped at this opportunity!


Gwen and Chelsia who are my NDP kakis.


Like the usual parade, they start off with the marching contingent. The unusual thing about this year's parade is that there was no marching! The supporting contingent ran in! Maybe the organisers gave up on their marching . *Laughs* But when the Guard of Honour came marching in, I was so hyped up. I wanna join them! *Whines*




We managed to get VIP tickets so needless to say, we got the BEST view! Woohoo! Plus we were in the shade whereas the others were melting in the blaring hot sun. Managed to get some lousy shots of the fireworks. Since this was only family day, I can say that the fireworks were not nice at all. I think it will be different on the actual day. After all, this is the last year the stadium is holding the NDP as it will be tore down after this year.



Then came the grand finale. Well, throughout the show, there was some cock up here and there. But considering this is their first public performance, I think it is not bad. They have to practise more though.



Anyway, the day ended with a long wait for some of the performers.



And we were off to have our dinner - Tian Ji Zhou! Claypot "frog" porridge! I don't know what is Tian Ji in english.. Hee! No photos though, because we were too busy devouring our food.

Lastly, I love you, Singapore!! Hope you will have a fun filled birthday this year!

Last Day of Work

Finally, the last day of work has arrived. Time really flew. I had been working in the same company for 6 months! When I first started, I had to really learn everything from scratch since this was the first time I worked in an office. I didn't even know how to pay bills and to deposit money! So I had to called my friends for help when I ran into problems. You see, I was trying my best not to look stupid in front of my colleages. =P
Then as time goes by, before I know it, I had settled into a routine. Things are not as tough as they appeared to be when I first started work. Though I still have to do phone calls, I am more relaxed and not as tense. (Tell ya a secret, in the beginning, I used to write down EVERY single word I planned to say on a piece of paper and practised once before making the call).
Needless to say, i had my colleages, namely Maggie and Gwen, for helping me along the way. Maggie is my shi-fu, teaching me everything patiently. She believes in arming us with the skills to survive in the working world. Thus, whenever I met a problem, I can always count on her to guide and teach me. I am utterly grateful to her. On the other hand, there is Gwen for entertainment. She likes to blast my eardrums with her loud laughter! I believe I'm quite deaf after my stint in the company. Anyway, she's my source of gossip juicy news and we spent hours making jokes and laughing our heads off. She is just like my normal couple, a term we used to introduce ourselves. *Giggles*
Now, it is time to leave the company. Damn, I really missed them! I remember Birdie once said, " How I wish I can go to the office without working." Yea, my sentiments exactly.
Anyway, we went to the restaurant Desire at Scarlet Hotel for my farewell lunch. Did I mentioned that I have great and generous bosses as well?



Wei Ying, Me, Gwen and Jasmine aka Ba Jie



Maggie on the far left





Well, goodbye Straits Advisors Pte Ltd! Thank you for the beautiful memories for the past 6 months! I will cherish them.....

Two Crazy KTV Sessions~!

KTV with my secondary school mates

Although there are only four of us, i'm glad we managed to shatter some glass with our powerful voices.



It starts to get a little weird as the day goes on.



Decided to end the day with the classic shoot.




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KTV with my colleages

We went to this cheap ktv place which cost $10+++ per person. Scream our way through 5 hours of KTV. Damn, it's fun!


Our dinner at Chinatown

Songs

A good song is one that tells you a story.

It seems to be telling you your life story.

It stir up something deep inside you.

It open doors which you have closed before.

Suddenly, things seem clearer to you.

Suddenly, you feel more confused.

Stupid People (Part One)

Finally, I decided to blog about some of the most stupid people I've met in the streets. Well, i lack the courage to yell," STUPID" in their faces so i am going to write it down here, where you people can judge how stupid someone can be. Ha! I am so going to have fun dissing them.
I think most of us have met this kind of stupid people when we take public transport. They are those kind who held up queues when they keep rubbing the ez-link card reader all over with their bags, trying to get their damn ez-link cards scan. To make things worse, those card readers on buses emit a high pitch beeping sound whenever there are errors when people rub the machine up the wrong way (pun intended). It IRRITATES me!! Why can't they bloody take out their ez-link cards and scan the reader instead of fumbling here and there, making a big fool out of themselves? Haven't we all survive perfectly when the ez-link card has not been invented yet? The person who invented that must be living in his own perfect world where lazy, and deaf, people do not exist.
After looking at www.parkingidiots.blogspot.com and their labels for idiots who park like their grandfathers own the carpark, I feel that maybe we should also create some labels for those stupid think-that-they-will-die-before-they-scan-the-card-using-their-hands kind of people. Grrr..I get so frustrated everytime I met these people.

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Yesterday I went to Marina Square to play pool and I met the most fucking rude pool manager. The bloody monkey-looking manager with the dirty, brush-like goatee just pissed me off with his attitude. We stood in front of the counter for around 15 mins and he totally ignored us!! Do we look invisible to you? "Hello, Ah Seng from Marina here... Yada yada yada..." He continued his phone call without acknowledging us. Ya, his name is Ah Seng. Wow, what a nice name. *Snigger* Poor ah zek, with such a name to match it off with his face. What are his parents thinking?
Really, he has the worst attitude in the sales industry! I feel like sticking a pool cue up his flaring nostrils. Hmm.. That's a good idea.. Maybe he will look at me then since there are no eye connection when he finally turn his attention to us. Fugly man.. Spoil my mood for the pool session.. Next time if any of you visit the poolroom at Marina Square, help me say "Hi" to him by waving middle fingers at him k? By the way, a word of advice, you have to stick the pool cue up his nose first to get his attention.

Hurt By His Stupidity

Ya, I'm hurt. Hurt by his words. Just a simple "orh" to agree to what someone said. Never defend, never question, never consider, never feel.. Just agree like that. Yea, fine, whatever. You know, I once thought that if we are to become an item, what I care most about what the others say would be the very thing you agreed on. So I guess, either one of us will have to change then. I rather it be me. Well, if you want to spend your time finding work, then I guess I can spend my time changing. I can wait for you (that is if I want to) and you can wait for me. Fair and square. Yea, I'm pissed....

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I am sooooo stressed in my work!! Whatever that I came up with are not good enough to my boss. I'm really at my wits end because I really squeeze out whatever that I can find but still my boss is not satisfied. What am i to do?! I want to cry already. Sometimes, when I made telephone calls, I can see strands of hair falling down. Serious! I also realised something unpleasant. Your work performance can be affected by 3rd parties. Sure, I like to hand in my work in the shortest time but due to the aliasing with a third party, I have to wait for him/her to finish him/her work before I can hand in mine. It is so sucky! I prided myself on my efficiency and I don't like people to affect me and spoil my "reputation". I also don't like to keep calling and rush whoever that person is because I'm sure that he/she is also irritated. I tried to help whatever I can on my side and I hope that person will do just the same. *Sigh I don't know... I'm feeling very vexed by being so out of control... *SCREAMS I want to present top quality work!!

Bewitched, Bothered and Bewildered

I guess it is not so easy to say forget and really forget. I still think about him, especially the night in the pub. In fact, I dreamt of him nearly every night. It’s getting kind of scary when I never dreamt of anyone every night before. I guess I really have to make myself real tired so that I can stop thinking about him.
Is money that important? I guess so. My brother once told me that money can give a guy confidence. Well, I heard from my friend who heard it from someone else that he is going to have a stable job first before he is going to do anything. I was quite surprised when I first heard it. Secretly I was pleased. At least this proves that he is a mature guy and he do have plans for his future. Seriously, I do not know what I am feeling right now. Sometimes, I hope that he will not take any actions. This way, our friendship will last forever. Besides, I like the group and I hope things between me and him won’t make me lose the friendships that I have made within these few weeks.
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I just went back to my Secondary School yesterday. The reason? To collect my O-Level Certificate! It had been collecting dust in my School for 4 years! And all the time I thought it was lost. Lucky I called my secondary school first to ask for replacement. I also realize that some of us also did not go back to collect the certs. To Commonwealthians out there, please check if you still have your O-Level cert with you.
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Anyway, I realize that nowadays no one bothered to leave any comments in my blog. Is it because of my constant ramblings about him? Or no one even bothered to read anymore.

Cooling Down..

Guess a lot of my close friends must be wondering how did it go on last friday. Well, that was a major turning point in my story. It seems like whatever that I felt for him is gone. It struck me when I was the least prepared (at Pulau Ubin) but when I expected a lot on friday, nothing happened. No butterflies in my stomach, no chemistry, no flashes (I watched too much drama), nothing. You know, they always say, strike the metal when it's hot. I'm like that piece of metal, thing is I get hot easily and the downside is that I cool off damn easily too. He did not strike when the metal is hot and now, the fire that flamed it has gone.
Maybe it was the way he dressed on friday too. I like my guy to be well-dressed. A simple white tee and bermudas is enough for me. But it is kind of disappointing when I saw what he wore that night. *Sigh* Am I superficial? I guess I am....
I'm quite scared now. I am feeling a lot of pressure. I've not only have to be responsible to him but to his friends too. They all rallied around him and I had already shown that I was a little interested in him. but now, what am I going to say? I had a dream last night. I dreamt that I was in a car on my way to the ROM. I was wearing a white wedding gown and sitting beside me is the groom. (It is not him. I do not know who the heck is the groom and how he entered my dream. Scary.) I kept asking the groom," Are you going to regret this? Do you really like me?" And he kept assuring me that he do. But I can see that he is not happy. In the end, when we reached the ROM, he suddenly turned to me and say he cannot go through this with me. I was RELIEVED. I realised I also cannot go through this with him. Is this dream a premonition?
I do not know whether the feelings will come back. I'm one who's attracted to sense of security. That is why I want to date older guys. They are able to provide me with the sense of security that comes with maturity. Maybe that is why I was swoon away on the night we were at the pub. I felt secured when he steadied me, when he helped me to drink (because someone was sabotaging me), when he saved me from being drunk. Maybe that is why....
Well, I'll see what is going to happen in the future. Maybe I'll be a spinster all my life. I just can't like somebody long enough. The only time I like someone for two long years and he fell for my best friend. But that is another story for another time.

Memories

Happy memories can keep one happy, yet it can make one feel empty. Yup, that is what I'm feeling nowadays, Memories of what happened kept repeating in my mind. Sometimes I blushed, sometimes I giggled a little, sometimes I touched my cheek, sometimes I thought things smell of you, sometimes I felt your warmth.... And yet, when reality sets in, you're nowhere to be seen or heard.
I really want to know what is going through your mind? You told me a lot of things that night, are those memories holding you back? Have you taken a step out of it? Are you still drowning in your past memories?
I thought things might proceed from that day onwards but somehow I still feel stuck. I really need to know what is going on.
I don't know what I'm feeling for you right now. Am I falling for you? I don't know.. Do you want to know? Or will friday night be just part of memories for you and me?

13th May Saturday

I went to a few interesting places recently. Due to work, I have to travel to the Supreme Court and the China Embassy. When I went to the Supreme Court, to tell you the truth, I was quite nervous about entering such a solemn place. When I was there, I saw the famous Indian lawyer, whom I believe is the defendent lawyer of the Ah Took for the Huang Na's case. I thought, woah, there is going to be a important hearing today. As I was thinking, suddenly I saw a camera facing me. Bloody hell! It was the tv crew! I hope that I was not being filmed down. Did any of you saw me on the news? *Concern* Anyway, when I reached level 4, where the Singapore Academy of Law is located, I saw A LOT of people waiting outside the court rooms. I heard from an uncle that this hearing was for the Liu Hong Mei's court case. She was the China woman who was murdered and chopped up by her secret lover. That explains why there was a crowd. I didn't know Singaporeans are so "concerned" to rush down to the court by 8am to listen to the court hearing. (They are mostly retired uncles and aunties and this also explains why there was a crowd.) It reminds me of the Roman matches where Romans gathered at the Colosseum to watch a man fight against a wild beast, eg lion. Seems that people still have taste for blood.
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I finally went to Ubin yesterday. It's been a year since I last set foot on Ubin. Things have changed. The jetty at Singapore has upgraded and there are staffs to organise the boarding of the boats. The toilets have been upgraded. There are more eateries. They are building a watch tower at Chek Jawa. Ubin has lost one of the two remaining wild boars on the island. Ubin is going to lose its flavour once it becomes modernise. I guess it is like a see-saw, you can never get a balance.
Yesterday it was the first time I met up with my colleage, Maggie's, friends. Our group has a wide range of ages. From age 17 to 40! So I was quite scare I might not fit in. But in the end it was enjoyable to be with them because they are friendly and crack the wildest jokes. The guys are also gentlemanly. I like guys who are gentleman. *Smiles* Well, here's some of the photos we took.


On the way there...


Nordin Beach


One of the many rests we took.


Meet Jack. He's the sole survivor. Be honoured.

We thought we are not going to leave the island alive. That is until Superman arrives. Look at how happy we smiled. He's our hero.


Now I'm back in good old clean, modernise Singapore and I'm starting to miss Ubin. The air, the smell, the habitants, the rides, the companionships....

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I'm so confused. I'm scare it might be a big joke.