Not Me

I have been drinking too fast and too hard these days. So not me.



(P.S. I was congratulating myself for not sending any drunk smses or making drunk calls when I saw this post. Great. Now, I make drunk blog posts too.)
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A Day I Will Remember Forever

So, I confessed. I never thought I would and could but I did.

So now he knows. I really pray hard that this would not affect our friendship. We'll see where it goes from here.

26th April 1 am. I will forever remember this day.


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It is Tough

I really dislike emotional posts but I am going to post one now. I just need to get this out of my system.

It is really tough liking someone and not expecting anything in return. I guess I am not a saint afterall. I do not expect that he will like me but it still affects me if he is interested in other girls. I am so afraid that he will like someone before I stop liking him. Really afraid.

Which is why, I think I need to stop liking him. Although it was fun and happy at first, things start to change once I start to have daydreams and expectations. I guess I am not that strong afterall.

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱

就讓我一個人去痛到受不了 想到快瘋掉

死不了就還好


我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑

我就不相信我會笨到忘不了 賴著不放掉

人本來就寂寞的 借來的都該還掉


我總會把你戒掉


"借來的都該還掉" This is so true. The happy times that I had was borrowed from him. They were not given.


Shall. Concentrate. On. My. Last. Paper. Tomorrow.

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I Get A Kick Out of You

I have been busy busy busy these few weeks. Being busy with school work is the norm. What makes these few weeks a "busy-yet-happy" time was playing DOTA, drinking and dining out with friends. And perhaps, friends have noticed that I seemed much chirpier and happier. That is because I am really chirpier and happier these few weeks. And I am going to put down the reason in my blog. I am not going to try to mince my words and act coy. Well, the main reason why I am enjoying myself these few weeks is that I got a crush on someone. After so many years.


He is the someone who makes me want to dress up every time we meet. He is someone who brightens up my day with a message asking whether I am free. He is someone who makes me shake my head in public in an attempt to clear my mind of silly notions. He is someone who makes me "park" in facebook. He is someone who makes me sneak peeks at him for the moments when he looks good. Most importantly, he is someone who makes my "I-thought-they-are-dead" butterflies in my stomachs flutter every now and then.


But there is something I wan to make very very clear here. This is a one-sided thing. The amazing thing is, I am satisfied with this. Really. Truly. I don't how to explain it or to make one understand. I am just happy to be meeting him and this happiness seems to envelop me. It creates this bubble that protects me and keeps me light and happy wherever I go. I am also glad that the butterflies in my stomach aren't that dead. I am just enjoying this moment.


So friends, don't go digging and searching for the slightest or smallest hints that he may be interested in me when I tell you stories. I know, for sure, he is not. I don't want to go down that path as I believe that will be unhealthy for me. Things change when more feelings are involved, don't they? More expectations, more wants, more disappointments, yada yada. You may think that I am silly. But if being silly makes me this happy, then let me be silly for a little while longer. Let me just soak in this simple simple one-sided infatuation. =)


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It Sucks to be a Woman

I wish that my period can come soon. All these hormones running inside my body are screwing up my brain. Between having cramps and staying sane and happy, bring me the cramps any time.


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My Birthday '11

Birthday Celebration With Enemies at Aston

It was held at Aston's in Centerpoint. It was a surprise because I didn't know where we were meeting. I was happy we are going there because western food never goes wrong with me. =P

Huli really surpassed herself! She was my bday organiser. At first, we didn't think this celebration will go well because of her history but she really, really gave me a wonderful party!

I had the cutest birthday cakes.

Sexayyyy! I want to have these figures by next birthday! =P



As seen, the baker was so meticulous.








With my favourite girls. =D



Sour grapes. If I don't have such big ones, the cupcake can't have them!







Splitting the ass. Heh!



Huli made these flowers! There were messages hidden inside each flower. So sweet! She must have spent much time and effort doing this. For me! I was so touched. =)


Love you, girls!


Birthday Celebration with Straits Gang at Concorde Hotel



Gwen managed to find this hi-tea buffet restaurant, the Spices Cafe, online. So, we went there for my bday celebration. It was so worth the money! There was Salmon sashimi which is my favourite! With that, I was a happy girl.




The biatches that I have known for 5 years. Phew.. Time really flew by.



My presents! They bought me a Laniege Moisturiser and Chelsia bought me a dress from Phuket.

It's a girl thing. Taking pictures in toilets.

Birthday Celebration with NIE Clique at Bar Bar Black Sheep


My favourite peeps in NIE asked me out for lunch after our psychology class on Monday to celebrate my birthday. Catherine drove us to this place that she was raving about a few months back. It is quite inaccessible unless you drive. Bar Bar Black Sheep is located along Cherry Ave, next to Sixth Ave.

My favourite peeps in NIE. =)

The western food stall closed on Mondays so we did not get to try it. But the Naans from the Indian stall made our trip worthwhile. They were delicious!






The peeps whom I hanged out with during my long long breaks in NIE. =)



Birthday Celebration with My Family at Home and Live@Teppan



Ethel and her mum made me a card for my birthday! And I was amazed with Ethel's artistic flair.



Nice right?


My cousin, Ethel's mum, bought me a cake!




My niece and nephews tried to blow the candles without me! Naughty kids! But they could win a bigger child (me!). I pushed them away and blew the candles. Wuahahaha!


Anyway, with the pampering adults around, they got to have a candle each and blew to their hearts' content.




Look at the pool of saliva on Aaron's chin and you know that he was such fun that he forgot to swallow his saliva.






The small little cake was split among 13 people.



Mum cooked giant prawns for me! These crustaceans were longer than 2 fingers combined! One prawn was enough to fill me up.



On my actual birthday, we went to Live@Teppan at West Coast Plaza to celebrate. The food was great! And we were entertained. I shall let the pictures do the talking.


















































Birthday Celebration with Sec School Gang at Bar Bar Black Sheep ... Again

Seems like this is the "in" place nowadays. Wan Lin suggested going Bar Bar to celebrate my bday. Although I was just there on Monday, I did not mind going back to try the Western food. This time round, we went there on a Saturday afternoon.

The western food Cat and Wan Lin were gushing about tasted pretty average to me. But maybe it was because I ordered the wrap instead of the steak which seemed to be their best dish. Well, to my steak lover friends, maybe you can give it a try when you go there!







After lunch, we went to Daily Scoop near my place for some desserts. Yums.. =)



I had a great time celebrating my birthday with my friends and family. =D Although growing old is a sad thing, they made that one time of the year a truly happy and memorable time for me. And I thanked them for helping me ease into another age.

I have the best people as friends. =)


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My Boyish Side

These few weeks, I have reconnected with my boyish side. The side that loves pool, Counter Strike and my new-found interest, DOTA.

My life is balanced and I am one happy girl. =)


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Best Marriage Proposal

I saw one of the best marriage proposals on postsecret.com.

Simple and sweet with a touch of humour. =)


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Metamorphosis

I've calculated. Over the past 3 days, I have slept less than 8 hours in total.

My butt has left a permanent imprint on my chair.

My laptop has started creaking where I rest my wrist.

My mind has begun playing random songs.

I can play the lead in Kung Fu panda.

I have a strawberry for my nose.

I have begun to start admiring myself. I feel like Superwoman. Maybe I could start designing my superhero outfit.

Hmmm... Wait. I think I will want to include one more adjective in my title. How about the adjective "tired" after "Super"? Hmm...

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Best Quote Eva!

I was telling this guy friend that I would want to have many "bois bois" for my birthday wish this year when he said this,

"u know.. women are like locks and men are like keys..
if a lock can be opened by many keys, it's a shitty lock!
but if a key can open a lot of locks.. it is a master key!


so one at a time ok?"

HAHAHAHAAHAA!!

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Forked Road

I am standing in front of a forked road. Should I go left or right?

On my left, it is a prestigious scholarship. Status, one more year of being a student, better prospects, etc, are attached to it. So does the extension of one more year of bond, no income for another year, studying alone in a competitive environment, lowering my chances of meeting someone, etc.

On my right, it is a job in my junior college. I have always wanted to go back. No classroom management issues, interesting subject, intelligent and responsive audience, etc. Hey, I may even reopen my ODAC club if I have the chance. However, I will have to meet my nemesis. Two of them, in fact. And I don't know if I can speak fluently and well enough to handle my job.

Which should I choose? *Troubled*

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Taking Action!

It's the family's annual trip to our "weight consultants'" place tomorrow. Every year, it's "Oh (insert a frown here), you gain weight huh?" or "You look (insert a half frown here) the same". Come to think of it, I don't think I have ever heard, "You have lost weight!"

And then, out rolls nutritional guides, exercise regimes, achievements in sports, etc. Oh ya, throw in some occasional snide jokes about our weight and you will get the whole picture. I am so not looking forward to it.

Speaking about weight, I have signed a one year package with Contours Express! I really enjoyed working out there. The circuit training suits me better than slogging 45 mins on the exercise bike. Besides, paying a fee a month is a motivational factor.

But as always, exercising is tiring, especially when some of the equipments place me in some very awkward and embarrassing situations.

One of such equipments is called the twisting disc.

Basically, you step on it, go into the half squat position and swing from side to side with your arms swinging in the opposite direction. The moment I step on the disc, I feel 40 years older. I am instantly "auntified". My eyes will naturally avert the rest of the people and the huge mirror at the side and I wish fervently that all eyes are averted from me too. The announcement "change station" never appear too early.


And then, there is the leg press machine.


On my first visit, I wore FBT shorts, which is suitable for jogging but totally inappropriate for working in a gym. To correctly manipulate the leg press machine, one has to position herself in the same position she will be in while in labour. Wearing the loose FBT shorts means exposing your..., you know where I mean, to the other women in the gym. It is a totally "sexy" machine. The instructions given are good material to be used in adult-themed movies. "Open your legs wider", "lift higher", "push", well, you get my drift. Totally awkward.

And finally, the triceps training machine.

Nothing much except that I have seemingly weak arms that shake horribly while working this machine. And it seems that the instructors like to chat with me at this station. So, it turns out that my voice likes to be in sync with arms. Great.

I am going to stick to my new exercise regime though! I am a whiner but not a quitter. The "weight consultants" will be so proud of me. Maybe I will get to hear the elusive "You lost weight!" next year.

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ODAC Zouk Party!

The last time I clubbed with my ODACians was when we were 19th! Finally, at the age of 24 approaching 25, we hit the club again!

Being the typical poor students, we bought alcohol and sat by the road to "warm up" before the real "clubbing".

Poh Wai and his "drug dealer" pose.












If it's not for our age, we looked like the typical Bengs, Lians and deliquents sitting by the road. Hmm.. So is growing old a good thing or not?



Now I know why 3 of my toes still feel numb after 2 days.



Girls from OCBC. OCBC stands for ODAC Chio Bu Club! Haha! The guys have a club too. UOB - Ugly ODAC Boys









Zouk was super crowded on Friday! It was packed to the brim with NS boys, Ah Bengs, Ah Lians and the barely-twenties. In other words, it was filled with lecherous young men and angsty, unreasonable and self-centered youths. Not a very nice place to be in.


Luckily, I got my friends with me! And they were fun to club with! There were some parts I got irritated though. Especially when the guys got too protective and made it difficult to dance. I kept telling JX that he should relax and that he was not there to protect us but to have fun too! I guess we girls could take care of ourselves pretty well. Heh! I appreciate their gestures though.

I got a shock when I checked the time in the middle of a dance. It was 4am! That was the first time time flew so quickly by for me in a club! And minutes later, the lights came on! It was then when my feet sent signals that they were dying. It was really really painful. I could barely walked. I survived based on sheer willpower.

The last group photo for the night!

I really enjoyed myself that night! And I didn't realise how much I missed clubbing! I didn't club the whole of last semester!

I want to go again! =P

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