Grief

So many unexpected deaths. I keep reminiscing about the past; their acts just kept flashing again and again in my mind. So do their deaths.

I doubt I will re-read about them in the near future. My hearts still grief over their departures. I will need time to fully mourn the losts and to accept that they are gone.

And then I will read about them again. This time round, I will appreciate their jokes better, applaud their heroic acts harder, imagine their faces clearer, interpret their actions better and then wept afresh when they are gone again. Maybe this time round I will weep harder or maybe I will accept their passing calmly as I know they have not died in vain.

I have lost some friends though I am a stranger to them. I have lost some friends who have accompanied me every night before I sleep for the past few weeks. I have lost some friends who will never return but their acts will always be remembered.

Time for grief.

Mummy's Birthday!

We just celebrated my mum's birthday on Monday. My brother and I decided to spring a surprise for her and bought her flowers! I guess I could not count on my Dad for flowers so we decided to give her flowers this year.


She was super happy!! She kept smelling the lilies and said that they smelt very nice. It was good to see her so happy. =) We also bought her Crabtree and Evelyn body lotion and foot scrub since she kept saying her skin is very dry.



A very happy Mum~

My family

(My brother dunno how to take photo. My picture with my mum damn blurred lor. Idiot. )

I didn't know that the anther of Lily is heart-shaped! So cute. No wonder girls like lilies.

But I like this.

Anyway, next time I don't want to buy flowers again. I don't like holding onto a bunch of flowers. Flowers and me don't match. I feel like a guy holding to a bunch of flowers. Bleagh.

But of course... I will do anything for my Mum. =)

My Quest has Ended

Yup, I managed to buy the book. Finally. And now I am a believer of curses. Not because of Harry. The day after I bought the book, I checked the library and the "Half-Blood Prince" is sitting there. Great.

Anyway, thank you Jia Yu, Birdie and Xiao Pang! Thank you for offering help during my quest. I hereby knight you Sir Jia Yu, Sir Birdie and Sir Xiao Pang! Haha! (Sounds like a bunch of transvestites) I will call you next time when I want to embark on a quest again!

My Quest for Harry Potter

Seems a bit lag, ain't it? Attempting to read all the Harry Potter's books only now. Lucky for me, my school's library has the complete series.

It has been a long and arduous quest, however. This is what happened to me and sometimes, you just have to believe this thing called "fate".

I have currently finished reading "Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix" so my next read should be "Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince". However, suddenly there is no more copy of that book in my school library! Thus, I embarked on my quest.

1st stop - Jurong East Library

Lots of Harry Potter Books, especially "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows", but no half-blood prince in sight.

2nd stop - Jurong West Library

The "Deathly Hallows" followed me to this library and the "Half-Blood Prince" is still missing.

3rd stop - IMM Popular

I decided to get my own book. And I was damn lucky! There are copies of the "Half-Blood Prince" on sale! On top of that, DISCOUNT! Haha! I quickly grabbed a copy and made my purchase. VICTORY!

I made my way home happily and feeling a tinge of excitement. I want to know what happened to Harry. I tore off the wrapper, settled myself down and began reading. But... Something is wrong... I looked at the cover. "NOOOOOOO!!!!" It is the "Deathly Hallows" in my own home!! I bought the wrong book!! And so.. My quest has not ended..

4th stop - Suntec Popular

Determined to get my hands on that book, I went to the biggest Popular store I know. Guess what? Loads of "Deathly Hallows" and the "Half-Blood Prince" is sold out.

5th stop - Bukit Timah Plaza Popular

It is getting boring. The same ending as above lar!

Am I under a curse? Is this how Lord Voldemort killed his victims?? Harry and your half-blood prince, COME BACK TO ME!

Donation

I am finally blogging again.. It has been a HECTIC two weeks with all the deadlines and the presentations back to back. I am pretty impressed with myself given my lazy nature. All my assignments are done at the last minute and I managed to complete it. I don't know about the quality though.. *Sad smile* I am so discouraged already I guess it doesn't make a difference anymore.

Anyway, I thought about blogging happy things after my long "break" from blogging. However, I want to blog about this incident that makes me pissed off. Though it is not really my business. It just irritated the kaypo and bossy side of me.

There is a girl in my school who needs a bone marrow transplant. The school posted the message on the school's portal and some of the professors have been emailing the different clubs to get them to find people who are willing to donate their bone marrow. I have received such a email from one of the professors and I was quite angry when I saw this sentence in the email.

"All it would take is for you to donate a blood sample on the days indicated below."

Really???? That's all it would take? That means a blood sample is enough to save the girl's life??

I think that it is so irresponsible for the prof to say that! This is of no joking matter. People will go with the misconception that a blood sample will do, although I don't believe someone will be that stupid. They should go with the mentality that they MAY HAVE TO DONATE THEIR BONE MARROW.

What if someone goes without thinking through and the test shows that he is eligible to donate to the girl. The girl and her family's hopes will be raised. And then, he decides not to donate because "I never thought that out of some many people, I am eligible. I was just there the other day to give a blood sample." That what will happen to the poor girl?? Raise her hopes and then smash it??

I like to think of consequences when I do certain things. Obviously, some people don't. This is not a drive to "collect the most number of blood samples". This is a drive "to search for eligible blood marrow donors". Some people got their objectives wrong.

Thank you~

People has been asking me why I procrastinate doing my assignments till the last minute. Afterall, it was my recess week so I should have a lot of time right? Well, these are the reasons! But I am not complaining.. =)

Friday

Met up with Maggie, Gwen and Jasmine Ba Jie for Sakae Sushi at Heerens. They have not changed much in terms of looks and characters. Still forever talking about boobs. Haha! I have not received the photos from Ba Jie so no photos. Bleagh

Saturday

Steamboat party in my house with my Enemies.

Sunday

My first uncle birthday! It was held at his house which is below my house. Haha! So convenient! Anyway, most of my family members attended his birthday which is a huge affair. This is because there are sooo many of us.. (Dreading the day when I have to plan for my wedding dinner.)

My first uncle and his wife


Of course, I must include a picture of cutsie Ethel.

Baby boy Edgar, another cutsie nephew of mine. I saw him for the first time that night. Too many members in my family. Very difficult to keep track.

Monday

After rushing my Geography assignment, it was time for kbox with my bro!

He was acting cool.

Wednesday

Met up with Wan Lin and Wan Ting. We went Holland Village for dinner. I thought that I have explored the whole of Holland V already but apparantly, there is this restaurant which I have left out. It is the 211 Roof Terrace Restaurant. It is situated on the top of the Cold Storage Building and it is a nice nice place! We dined Alfresco style. I like.

Are you tempted to visit there?

With Wan Lin the hot babe

With Wan Ting the lady

Thursday

Celebrated my birthday with my Family at Grill-Out, a western restaurant located just a few blocks away from my home. The food and ambience is super but there are only a few non-beef dishes. A pity. No pictures though coz Dad doesn't like to take pictures.

After the dinner, my family went to the pub, Sunset Tavern, next to the restaurant for a chill out session. We have not been to a pub as a family for ages. Glad we did it during my birthday.

My Mother and Bro gave me this for my birthday. Wanna guess the price? You'll be shocked. I was.

Friday

Went ktv with my roomie, Pei Wen, Xiao Xi and Pei Si at Chinatown 10 dollars KTV place. Very cheap! It was really 10bucks only!

After belting our hearts out, we went to the Chinatown Food Street for dinner. Cheap and good!

Are you hungry again? Haha!

Blowing candles at Vivocity.

Before I end this entry, I want to show my new bag given by my NIE friends. I really like it alot! It is so "me"! Haha!

So now my dear friends, you know why I could not complete my assignments. I did not even have time to go shopping. I am getting embarrassed of my tattered slippers.

But I am not complaining. =D

I rather be a Caveman

I wanna tear my hair out! The stupid NIE portal is down! I have my assignments to upload and some lecture notes to download. The deadline? Tomorrow! Actually, it is "tomorrow" now..

If they want us to do all this IT stuffs, then make sure they have the necessary infrastructure for us to do so! Don't ya ya papaya, tell us to upload and download assignments on our own when the f***ing system keeps hanging! It is not the first time already..

Ya, we can upload earlier right? But it is my habit to upload on the night before. There is no marks penalised for uploading at the last minute right? How do I predict the system will hang?! I am no Master Khor..

Bring back the days when we use pen and paper. When everything is so simple.

It is that Feeling

I do not need to find someone better than him

I just need to find someone who can make me feel the way I felt for him

Memories that Wouldn't Let Me Go

I am a very happy girl who feel so loved by my family and friends. It is especially touching to see what your friends did for your birthday. I received so much, not just presents, for my birthday that I can't wait to give back to my friends. You are the ones who keep me sane and help me through rough times. I can't thank you enough for it but to be there by your side should you ever need me.

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Why, oh, why, was I reminded of him during this happy time?? Memories of him just suddenly came back to me.. Maybe it is because a lot of my friends are getting engaged or falling in love and I just miss that kind of "heart-thumping" feelings. Maybe I built up such a perfect image of him that I was clouded by it and lost touch of reality. Maybe I was haunted by "what if"...

It has been 5 long years. So so so so long ago... Maybe he is married with children now. If I really dwell on that, tears will flow.. What if I...? What if we...? What if that...?

Back to my dreamland.. Where I will meet him again.. Where things will have fairytale endings.. Where I know it is impossible to make my dreams come true in reality.. That is what makes my dreams so beautiful........

Bound to Myself

What do you see?

You people gazing at me

You see a doll on a music box that's wound by a key

How can you I'm

Under a spell I'm

Waiting for love's first kiss


You cannot see

How much I long to be free

Turning around on a music box that wound's by key

Yearning

Yearning

While

I'm

Turning around and around......

My 22nd Birthday with my Enemies

Time seemed to pass so quickly! My birthday is around the corner now and I am 22 this year! Gosh... It seems like I have just graduated from JC but that was about 4 years ago..

Anyway, I celebrated my birthday with my Enemies on Saturday. We had steamboat, my favourite, at my house. I told my mum not to prepare a lot and yet she went to cook one full pot of soup. However, we managed to finish the whole pot! I was so surprised! Haha! They are finally learning to eat. =P



The food that my mum prepared together with me. Are you feeling hungry?


Jaws started her little manicure shop in my house during the party. She is getting very good at it! I think we should organise a slumber party very soon.. =P

Look at the smiles from her satisfied non-paying customers!

I don't know why but Ah Bun seemed very choked with emotions during the party. Ah Bun, I know you love me but don't have to display your affections in front of the others. *Blush*

(Actually, she was choking on the chilli but I prefer to think otherwise.)

The birthday cake and me.

I am super pleased with my presents! They bought a pencil case, a make-up bag, espirit vouchers and a pair of earphones for me! It is amazing how they can read my mind.. I am so impressed....

I really love my girls... I think I don't need to say much here. But I am confident they know how I feel about them. =)

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XP, all the best to you! You know what I am refering to.. I am glad that the thing took place like what you had hoped will happen. =)

Being Thick-Skinned

To: My dear enemies,

I decided to be a bit thick-skinned about my birthday this year. Haha!

To help you all out, here's a list of what you can for my birthday. I really have the intention of helping you when I decided to blog this. Haha!

1) Pencil Box
2) Make up Bag
3) Sports Tee
4) Ear phones

Hope this helps! (Please please please don't give me billabong, OP, 37 degrees, etc, stuffs.. I am way over that age.. =P)



Anyway, you all can pop over from 2pm onwards on this Saturday. The Mahjong table is waiting for players. =)

Huli's 22nd Birthday

It was a touching reunion. After 5 long months of separation, we were finally reunited with Huli again. Tears flowed uncontrollably as we hugged together. She is finally back with us...

Haha! AS IF THIS HAPPENED!

But it is true that Huli went missing for around 5 months. All of us do not know where she went, what she did and what happened to her. Notice I used present tense? Coz we still do not know the reason...

However, she is back! We celebrated her 22nd birthday on Saturday at Guilin View restaurant at CCK stadium. The food was good. BUT the service was DAMN bad!! We asked for a extra packet of Keropok for the Lo Hei. We were prepared to pay $1-$2 although Huli got it for free the other time she went there with her parents. The waitress we spoke to told us 1 small packet of crackers cost $5!! When we asked another waitress, she said it will cost us $2. WTF?! They named us any price they fancied?? When we questioned further, they decided to give us a free packet. The cost? Lousy service from them.

Picture speaks a thousand words. What could not be captured by the camera were the sighs, the irritated tone, the impatient look, faked ignorance by the waiters and waitresses.

Now, on to talk about the happier stuffs!

A picture of the birthday girl.

We had a super pleasant meal. There were sharkfin, peiking duck, ee fu noodles and many others.. Yummy! After that, we went to Huli's house as we had never been there before. Jia Yu, too bad you had to leave first.. =P



I really like Huli's parents. They were so hospitable! I will not mind going back again. Ok, Huli? =P

Lastly, Happy Birthday HULI!!

Ethel Baby 2nd Birthday

Ethel baby is two already! I am so happy to have seen her through her first two years. From a baby who cannot talk or walk, to a chatty toddler who can talk, sing and run a lot. I guess I really learn a lot from her. In my contract school, I have to deal with autistic children and they behave just like any two years old. They are not used to expressing themselves and sometimes, they don't seem to understand us, adults.


Ok, I am digressing. Tee hee! As usual.... Back to the celebration!

We booked the karaoke room at the chinese restaurant near my home.



While waiting for the rest to arrive, I entertained myself by taking stupid pictures.


Ethel was super fascinated with the mike. She kept holding onto the mike and sang softly to herself.



She even knew where to switch on the mike!



From the next two pictures, you can tell that Ethel is some sort of a celebrity in my family.



Can you tell? Haha!


Aaron and Alvin were also present at the party. They are reaching 1 year old in March!

My Dad says Aaron always looks like 心事重重 (a lot things in his mind). Haha!


I like Alvin in this picture! He looked mischievous..


I'm going to end this entry with a picture of the birthday girl. I really hope that I have the chance to watch her grow up. And when she is around my current age, I will show her this entry of mine and remind her that she is still much loved by us.

Not again...

The older I get, the more emotional I become...

A sudden feeling..
Something I cannot place..

Fortune Telling

I went for fortune telling today in school! (My school has a Bazaar and there was a fortune teller.) The fortune teller's name is Master Khor. I don't know if he is famous but it seems that he was featured in a lot of magazines, newspapers and shows.

Anyway, I decided to blog this entry because I want to look back in the future to check whether what he predicted is true. =P

Things he said which are, oh, so true!

He said that I am a super egoistic person! He used "peacock" to describe me. I have a lot of self-pride and thus, cannot stand having my weakness identified by people. (Yes, I am a very proud person. However, this doesn't mean I like to boast.)

I am very strong in my attitude and thus, have my own set of thinking which not many people may find it easy to change.

I am independent. I do not need guys to do things with me. He used "loner" to describe me as I can survive on my own without guys.

It is very difficult for me to get into relationships. This is because I need to find someone stronger than me. I cannot stand weak guys. (This is so true.... Usually, the guys who went after me are weak, in my opinion. To be honest to myself, I find them weak once I found out that they are interested in me. Weird, isn't it?)

He said that I have a lot of luck. I have a lot of 贵人, which means that there will be people around who will help and guide me in whatever I do. (I find this quite true. I have Maggie to teach me when I was working in Straits Advisor. I have Mona, Janis and Suzanne to teach me when I was in my contract school.)

Things which he predicted

As I am so strong in my character, I may get married at a later age. He predicted I will get married at 29 years old and above.

He said I will have a lot of 桃花 which means relationships. This is because guys will find it a challenge as "I am hard to get". He warned me that I may fall deeply once I get into a relationship and this may not be good.

He said that I do not have to worry about money. Money will come. (I like this. =P) When I pressed on, he said that I may not be the one who makes the money.

I will most likely marry a foreigner or a chinese foreigner. (I hope it is not Ah Tiongs or the foreigners that hang around Jurong Point.) I don't mind baby with blue eyes or blonde hair. =P

He also told me to wear light blue clothes. Time to change my wardrobe.

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So let's see if these things will happen to me. *waits patiently*

P.S. I just read XP's blog and she also went to consult a fortune teller! So coincidental! We are good pals.

P.P.S I think my ex-roomie and I are better friends outside our room. =)

Amused

For a country that call "F4" as "F-福(foo) 4" and "S.H.E" as "S-死(sssss).H.E" and still complained that Singapore's English is worse than them, nothing makes me more amused.

Hermit No More

Finally, I moved out of my Hall today. I don't want to be wishy-washy over it so out I go! I feel FREE! Back into my parents' nest where it is filled with something nice, something spice and a little of chemical "Love". *Smiles* I cannot tell you how free I am feeling now. It is kinda weird isn't it? People move out for freedom but I feel "free-er" when I am back home.

Now, I am free to go out dinner! I am free to sleep anytime I want! I am free to watch TV! I am free to go back home any time! I don't have to report to anyone about my whereabouts! I don't have to explain why I went home late! I won't have someone to pile me with work when I reached home! FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Cheers*

Looking at my friends' blogs, everyone seemed to be blogging about CNY and how happy they were. Maybe it is time for me to stop sulking. (I predict this will happen very soon. =))

CNY post another time!

Very Angry

I don't know what I am so angry about. I seemed to flare up at every little thing. I read too much into msn and smses. I jumped at every opportunity to be angry. I don't give a damn to what I said. Oh my god... I'm turning into a total bad-tempered bitch.

I hate it and yet I like it this way. To be angry gives me guts and power. I got the guts to say whatever I like to the person which I will not do so when I am not angry. I got the power when the person has to listen to what I say whether he/she likes it or not.

I am in control and not in control of myself. It is really oxymoronic.

Somebody told me that I AM bad-tempered since JC days. The reason he gave me either made me want to burst out in rage or in laughter. He said that I once commented I do not like flirting. From that, he deduced I am bad-tempered.

Hey man, Sorry to say this but I like flirting on one condition only - with hunks.

See, the world is filled with weird people. And they are attracted to me when I am in my angry state. Making me angrier. Which makes me attract more people to make me angry. Making me angrier. Which makes me attract more peopl.... IT IS A VICIOUS CYCLE!!!

GAH! I WANNA BASH UP ALL MOLESTERS, CAB-SNATCHERS, MRT POLE-LEANING CREATURES, FAT PROSTITUTES AND UN-HUNKY FLIRTS!

P.S. I love you friends.

Chinatown Trip

I went Chinatown with my family on last Friday despite me having food poisoning. I just could not forgo a trip to anywhere with my family. =)

Anyway, a couple of interesting things happened to us during the trip at Chinatown.

First, a prostitute in action!

She approached my dad and said, "Uncle, 20 dollars?" And she proceeded to roll up her blouse to revel a, gasp!, flabby stomach! Haha! (I feel like it is like choosing meat at a market.) My dad turned and smiled at my mum. I think my parents were pretty much amused. Of course, my brother and I could not stop pointing and staring at girl while commenting that she is so "cheap". Maybe she lifted up her shirt to explain why she charged so little? Hmm.. A honest and practical prostitute? Haha!

A Cheat in action!

Anyway, my brother wanted to buy the Taiwan jelly. So we approached this stall with a lot of varieties and is going at $1 per 100g of purchase. We chose some and let the stall keepers weighed them. One of the guys then commented, "You put in 5 more jelly and it will be 3kg." I was surprised! Did we take so many?? Anyway, it was quite chaotic and so my mum just paid him $30. Then his partner said, " Since my boss is not here, I'll give you extra!" We were thinking, "Wah.. So good!"

The two of them then proceeded to throw in A LOT of jelly into the plastic bag. They threw in so many that we began to be suspicious. When we returned home, we weighed the plastic bag and found that it was exactly 3 kg after all the "free" jelly! So the amount we took was definitely way less than 3kg!! The CHEATS!

So friends, if you are going to buy the jelly, please check the scale after they weighed the jelly. Do not be naive like us!



Anyway, here are some photos of Ethel, my niece during the trip. She looks adorable!

Ethel and her Mum, my cousin.

Trying to grab my camera

Looking dazed because of the crowd and noises.

Is it just me or do you find her adorable too?